Day 18 – Wonderfully Made
First, let me say sorry about yesterday’s cop-out post – I wasn’t feeling well and crashed right after dinner, but I didn’t want to not post since I said I would every day for a month, so I woke up a little after 9 and threw the nuclear option post up. I promise it will be the last one. And now onto today’s episode…a little on the serious side this morning…
A few months ago, a friend of mine gifted me with a beautiful CD – Red Sea Road by Ellie Holcomb (if you haven’t listened to her before, do yourself a favor and do so – she has a quirky, country tone that I adore and just a really personal way of using Scripture in her lyrics that speak to my heart) and I love every song on it. This morning I put it in my car for my trip into and back from Springfield. About ½ way home from dropping off Arden a song came on that I had heard before but struck me with a fresh dose of “wow God is so cool”. I’ve attached it for your listening pleasure.
Our church is doing a parenting series and last week’s message was built around these verses in Psalms 139, and it has been rolling around in my mind since Sunday. So when this song came on I had to sit back and let the emotions take over for a bit because clearly this is something I needed to hear and take note of today…
You have searched me, Lord,
and you know me.
2 You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar.
3 You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways.
4 Before a word is on my tongue
you, Lord, know it completely.
5 You hem me in behind and before,
and you lay your hand upon me.
6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too lofty for me to attain.
7 Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?
8 If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.
9 If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
if I settle on the far side of the sea,
10 even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast.
11 If I say, “Surely the darkness will hide me
and the light become night around me,”
12 even the darkness will not be dark to you;
the night will shine like the day,
for darkness is as light to you.
13 For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
15 My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place,
when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.
16 Your eyes saw my unformed body;
all the days ordained for me were written in your book
before one of them came to be.
17 How precious to me are your thoughts,[a] God!
How vast is the sum of them!
18 Were I to count them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand—
when I awake, I am still with you.
I am not ashamed to say I bawled the rest of the way home (which was a challenge because you shouldn’t really be bawling, singing, raising one hand in worship and trying to drive at the same time – so I’m also incredibly thankful for God’s protection today). I was so taken aback – first as a mother because of the awesomeness of the partnership that God has with us to create life. I’ve written before about the difficulties I had with having a child and the blessing that is my sweet little girl; but today I was struck with the strange and mysterious grace of God that HE chose to use this faulty vessel to work in and create another human. I wonder why he chose that way? I mean he could have chosen any way in the universe to create life, but he chose to partner with us to create. It is just a pretty awesome and mind-blowing concept to me – at least it was to me today.
I was also touched to consider that once that creative process is complete and we are born, He continues to create within and through us. He doesn’t put a period at the end of creation once we are born and give our first cry– He doesn’t forget us, He doesn’t stop knowing us, protecting us, using our imperfections for His purpose. He knows for what He created us and we are never hidden from Him.
I don’t normally use this blog to talk about serious things, partly because there are those out there in the internet world who are better equipped to speak to weighty things and partly because this blog is just a really fun place to talk about life’s nonsense. But today I felt like this might speak to someone who happens stumble across these words; like this song spoke to me today. You are known – You are not hidden – You ARE wonderfully made.
Tomorrow we will return to life’s hilarity because I am flying with a 5 and 7 year old, my sister and my mother to Florida at 7 p.m. and there is bound to be something ridiculous to share from that adventure, but for today I hope you take a minute to marvel at the goodness of God –
3 When I consider your heavens,
the work of your fingers,
the moon and the stars,
which you have set in place,
4 what is mankind that you are mindful of them,
human beings that you care for them?
See ya tomorrow!
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